How to unlove you

There’s only one question that lingers my head and my heart, how do i unlove you.

Randomly, no matter how long I wait if you would’ve come then you would already. No matter how much i reach you with my hands if you wanted to hold it then you should’ve done that ages ago. No matter how much i call for your name i know you won’t look back. I’m not even your favorite song that gives you goosebumps whenever you listen to. And I realized, i am no one to you. It was really hard to let go of someone you have so much attachment to. It is very hard to act like you’re okay when the truth is you are really not. It’s hard to accept that you were really not coming back, again.

You were always my brightest star in the sky. You were always my main character in every story I wrote but im not even a supporting character on yours. Some people are not meant for each other and we’re one of those.

Love is not give and take because no matter how much you love the person you can’t even take at least .01% of love you gave to them.

The only answer to my question was, to let go. To let you go no matter how hard it is for me and to let myself go-of the pain you gave me too.

Right now, im waiting for the time that my love for you will fade just like the old photo too. Im waiting to for the moment where i no longer be affected with everything that’s related to you. The time where every wounds you left was fully healed too, and i am satisfactorily happy. Moving forward is hard but i know i can because i am me, a strong woman you always got to see 🌸

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Once i was in love 💙

– [ ] there comes a point in my life that I’ve been inlove with someone whom I didn’t even see his face, where there is no assurance of being together. i was fooled and im never ashamed of that. I always think of an answer why did it happened to me? why me? why long distance relationships? why him? then it goes in me that, i am strong, i am loyal and i am me. in the middle of our relationship we had downfalls and here we are picking each other’s pieces and helping it back into its original shape. the feeling was different, having someone you talked to every single day of your life yet not seeing them in person, sharing deepest secrets with each other and crying over something stupid afterwards, someone who’s willing to gave you every single thing in this world, someone you shared your laughters with and everything it seems like he’s been my human diary, he knows me well, he’s knows my everything, he’s there (always) for 2 years and 5 mo we shared love and so much for that. imagining things with each other in some time. felt like someone knew you very well, inside and out but never tried to be with you. i am waiting, still waiting for years now. and the time comes when he decided to come with me and be with me. yes, he did try it but sadly it didn’t succeed because maybe he had some personal reasons why. at first i was disappointed, very much but as time goes by I’d realized no need to act and feel like teenagers anymore. i now understand why he didn’t make it, why he didn’t push it, why he didn’t pursue it. and I’d be better stay quiet because its the best way i can help. I can’t blame every single thing to him because he didn’t make it, for now all i have to do is to understand why did he do that. i also thank him for everything, for showing some little efforts he put in some time, the sincerity that I felt, the love, the care, support and all. thank you for sharing your life with a stranger like me. thank you for the experienced like this. you will always be my one true long distance relationship man!!!! 💞 thank you for the butterflies in the stomach!!! love you always!  

I LOVE YOU 💖

iloveyou. loving you with this kind of relationship isn’t easy, by not seeing you every single day, by not comforting you every time you’re in pain, by not being with you through your happy days, by not hugging you when all you need is to, by not wiping your tears when you cry, by not eating with your favorite meal and lastly by not kissing you. i am sorry we’re miles apart, we’ve never seen each other personally but frankly i have loved you  more than these words could do ❤

Fixin’ a cassé seele

It was 3 am and i was still awake, i am full of emptiness inside me. Still in the midst of realizing i was left alone…again. Thinking what are the possible things i’ve done wrong. I can feel the pain that injects my heart directly to my soul. I am always saying that he is the last but then fate was actually playing with my emotion. I know that i am too young to be like this but i am mature enough to do things so.

The cold crystal like water that slides down thru my fatty cheeck that hits me into damn reality, WE WERE NEVER BE GETTING BACK TOGETHER. I know i am a fool on my own self because i am loving a person i didn’t meet personally, you can judge the hell out of me and i hella don’t care it’s my life anyway. Just how fast the season change and so do him. I woke up one morning that you changed.. A lot. Everything in you, the way you text and all. I tried to renew what we have last year but i think i can’t anymore. Im just a little girl who have lost in a moment.  You may have too many flaws but i see the whole of you the real you. Thank you for sharing your life with me even though we never met each other, thank you for showing how real you are to me 💘

The wound is the place where the light enters you- Rumi