Gone but not forgotten..

“Once you get attached you’re f*cked”

I don’t know what to feel upon reading this line. You know why? Because I am totally f*cked up. I never thought that they would leave a mark in me, inside me. I thought we were just colleagues that after this contract we’re all fine, but we’re not because WE ARE FAMILY. The unforgettable bonds, the crispiness of  each other’s laughter, the inside jokes that sometimes hits you real hard, the unending insults we throw from each other, those drinking-sesh we had every freakin’ Friday (or in the middle of the week or when someone is heart broken or a year-end party), those times when we got so drank and took bunch of videos and shameless photos. Those were the times when we trusts each other, those were the times when we became a family. A family that is not related by blood but a family that is related by bond.

I don’t want to end what we have started. The moment when we are little by little falling off from the tree. It has been a very long journey, my friend. A journey that ended very soon. We don’t know what will happen next but rest assured that what we have, and what happened to us stays in my heart ♥️.


We are family 

I was at the cliff and i am thinking to end my life, i was emotionally hurt, physically tired. I felt so useless. I felt like no one is lending their ears for me to listen to, i felt like the world is turning back on me, i have no one at that moment, and i only have myself ☹️ I was actually smiling outside as if nothing’s happened, as if there’s no problem but deep with in me i was killing myself, i wanted to end the sufferings, the trials, the circumstances, the people and my life. One night i was wondering what is wrong with me, why am i experiencing these stuffs, why is it that i have no one? I felt sorry for myself for giving too much attention to everyone without unknowingly thinking about myself. “I am not a type of person to give up on someone. Yes, sometimes i get really mad and upset so i need a minute to cool off but i’ll never abandon you. I don’t leave people, and I think thats why it always hurts so bad when people left me”. I was deeply in pain, secretly 😔 i was. At the same night, I dreamt of God. Yes, I did. He is sitting under the Aspen Tree 🌳 he invited me, he asks me why am i thinking such things when in fact i have Him 👆🏽I can always talk to Him, anytime anywhere, no matter what I have him and He gave me my family and friends. I told him “but i felt like they don’t care with me” and He says “tell them what happen, tell them what is the problem, they may not help you but i know they can boosts you and it can help with your decisions”. I woke up early and realize that i shouldn’t end what He gave me and with that conversation I realize “no man is an island 🌴” I have him 👆🏽, I have my family 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 and i have my friends 👯 So, if you feel like giving up with life don’t think twice in sharing it with your confidant 😊 we are all one family here so let’s help each other, drop that crab mentality, drop that jealousy, drop it all. Let’s held our hands, stand still & strong to face every storm that may come our way!

You have me, I have you because we are one family.