How to unlove you

There’s only one question that lingers my head and my heart, how do i unlove you.

Randomly, no matter how long I wait if you would’ve come then you would already. No matter how much i reach you with my hands if you wanted to hold it then you should’ve done that ages ago. No matter how much i call for your name i know you won’t look back. I’m not even your favorite song that gives you goosebumps whenever you listen to. And I realized, i am no one to you. It was really hard to let go of someone you have so much attachment to. It is very hard to act like you’re okay when the truth is you are really not. It’s hard to accept that you were really not coming back, again.

You were always my brightest star in the sky. You were always my main character in every story I wrote but im not even a supporting character on yours. Some people are not meant for each other and we’re one of those.

Love is not give and take because no matter how much you love the person you can’t even take at least .01% of love you gave to them.

The only answer to my question was, to let go. To let you go no matter how hard it is for me and to let myself go-of the pain you gave me too.

Right now, im waiting for the time that my love for you will fade just like the old photo too. Im waiting to for the moment where i no longer be affected with everything that’s related to you. The time where every wounds you left was fully healed too, and i am satisfactorily happy. Moving forward is hard but i know i can because i am me, a strong woman you always got to see 🌸

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To the one who left me hanging

it was a fair day when i dreamt on something way back in my college life, i was full of hope and strength to achieve those. i was sitting on the mini forest with my earphones on and my pen to write my to-do-lists. And in a snap you enter my life full of darkness and hatred about life, you served as my light so i can see the right path for me, for us. little by little we became one, we tend to swim with the big waves of life I didn’t imagine i will too. I learned to face everything with everyone because of you. I never thought that an ordinary girl like me would be loved and admired by someone. at first, i have hesitation to let you enter into my life but as time passes by i was falling and you keep on pushing me to fall deeper. i feel loved from time to time. you love me.

At one glimpse, you stop communicating, the sparks in your eyes gets darkened, the feeling you had gets cold. everything was dead like my favorite rose where it losses its smell and color at the same time. my whole entire gets weakened, I barely talk with someone. I wasn’t prepared, i was left hanging without saying anything.

And now, im trying to live life alone. I’m trying to rebuild the dreams that shattered. it may be hard to keep moving forward but i know i can, i am who i am! right now, i am not okay but im on my way!

To someone who left me hanging, thank you for everything achieve your goals in life and always keep on smiling. There’s so much to be thankful for.

NTS: Keep your head up high and your standard higher 😉. Continue being a goal digger!